我把自己撕碎了

身体和心灵

只是为了让你看到

你对我有多重要

但我还是会听到你说

“你不再爱我了吗”

所以我让自己很痛

所以你会看到我有多爱你

但你还是想要更多

所以我把自己撕碎了

就像我从一开始做的那样

给了你我的全部心

这还不够

所以你找了另一个

称她为你的爱人

我只是你的后备掩护 

Tore myself apart

Physically and metaphorically

Just so you could see

How much you mean to me

But still I’d hear you say

“Don’t you love me anymore”

So I made myself sore

So you’d see how much I love you for

But still you’d want more

So I tore myself apart

Like I did from the start

Gave you my entire heart

In the end it wasn’t enough

So you sought another

Called her your lover

And I was only your backup cover

CUTS

在月光下跳舞 

只为再打一架

忍受我

我们永远不会知道,如果我们从来没有看到

在雨中歌唱

我们都知道痛苦

这种痛苦的探戈

我知道我们都知道

如果我们永远不会结束

我们永远不会停止

在月光下跳舞 

直到今晚结束

我想我们永远不会知道

我们永远看不到

Dancing in the moonlight

Just for one more fight

Put up with me

We’ll never know if we never see

Singing in the rain

We both know the pain

This painful tango

I know we both know

If we never end

We’ll never stop

Dancing in the moonlight

Until the end of the night

I guess we’ll never know

We’ll never see

MOONLIGHT

我让你恶心

与承诺

我从来没有留下

你把花吐了

他们刺进你的脖子

荆棘在里面生长得更深

当你变弱

我本可以救你的

但我太迟了

花在长

花把你变成了他们的

你现在和他们

带着这些遗憾

你离开了我

只能怪我

我的承诺

我从没留过

当花儿夺走你

我只能希望

我本可以带你回家的

I’ve made you sick

With the promises

I never kept

You throw up the flowers

As they stab inside your neck

Thorns grow deeper

As you grow weaker

I could’ve saved you

But I’m a little too late

The flowers they’ve grown

And made you their own

You’re one with them now

And with these regrets

You’ve left me

Guess I’m only to blame

For the promises 

I never kept

And as the flowers take you whole

I just wish

I could’ve brought you home

HANAHAKI:REGRETS

Closeup video of the beaded wings

Closeups of the beaded wings - I took these under these under the sunlight to capture how the beads shine against the lights.

Beaded wing prop for the outfits:

This is technically just a prototype for the real wings I will use on the models. But I thought it turned out so beautiful I had to include it within the completed works section.

I have titled this piece “Fallen Angel” as the red makes it look like bleeding angel wings against the white beads of differing sizes.

Full image of the beaded wings

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